amaya - It's hard to type through tears

It's hard to type through tears

Feb. 14th, 2006 | 01:02 pm

Is it unfair of me to be this way? Probably. Do I know how to act any other? No. Do I hate being right about this? Yes. It wouldn't feel so gut wrenching if someone would just let me be right, who didn't tell me I was being stupid for knowing what will happen... I'm not stupid, I'm not wrong, why make what is already hard so much worse?

I feel like a part of me is missing, I hate it and I want it back, but it's no longer mine to take.

In the past I've felt more hurt, but now I feel more upset than I ever have before, more desolate and bleak, less able to see a future that is good.

I miss you, I love you, I hate this, how do I make it stop?

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